mad science
today i visited a new doctor. he was recommended to me by a friend who also has pcos. pcos, for those who don't know, is poly-cystic ovarian syndrome. since it's not a 'disease' it is only identified by it's symptoms, which include absence of periods, being overweight, hairy arms and face, lack of energy and cysts on the ovaries. i have all of these. i carry my weight like a man (around my waist), i've got a nice (but not very noticeable) 'stache and i've only had one period on my own in the past 11 years.
every doctor i've ever gone to has told me that i don't have pcos because i lack the one large identifying factor: cysts on my ovaries. so, all they have tried to do is to get me menstruating. they have been trying to solve the result, not the leading up reasons.
anyways, this is all to say, i went to a new doctor; a mad scientist.
he took one look at me and asked if i was an athelete. i told him i swam in high school and i was pretty active, but since i had such a lack of energy, it was difficult. he started telling me about how i could have been great, i could have been an amazing. appaently, the same hormone that is making it nearly impossible for me to lose weight (and is producing testosterone) helps one to grow great muscles and strong bones. that is why my legs are so ripped; they get a workout all the time!
so, he put me on a strict diet (no white sugar or flour, high fiber etc...) and gave me a script for metformin (glucophage). it will eat up all the extra insulin that is running around my body wreaking havoc.
it's been hard, since i love sugar sooooooo much. but he said that if i can stick with it, i could easily lose 100 lbs, get all my energy back, get off my psychiatric drugs and take back my life.
i started crying, because i haven't ever had a doctor take me seriously. i haven't ever had someone say, "it's not your fault." i do know i have to be responsible for making the change, but i also know that it is possible. i'm not doomed to a life dictated by my weight and my stress and my lack of energy and my paralyzing depression.
this may be the happiest i've been in ages.
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every doctor i've ever gone to has told me that i don't have pcos because i lack the one large identifying factor: cysts on my ovaries. so, all they have tried to do is to get me menstruating. they have been trying to solve the result, not the leading up reasons.
anyways, this is all to say, i went to a new doctor; a mad scientist.
he took one look at me and asked if i was an athelete. i told him i swam in high school and i was pretty active, but since i had such a lack of energy, it was difficult. he started telling me about how i could have been great, i could have been an amazing. appaently, the same hormone that is making it nearly impossible for me to lose weight (and is producing testosterone) helps one to grow great muscles and strong bones. that is why my legs are so ripped; they get a workout all the time!
so, he put me on a strict diet (no white sugar or flour, high fiber etc...) and gave me a script for metformin (glucophage). it will eat up all the extra insulin that is running around my body wreaking havoc.
it's been hard, since i love sugar sooooooo much. but he said that if i can stick with it, i could easily lose 100 lbs, get all my energy back, get off my psychiatric drugs and take back my life.
i started crying, because i haven't ever had a doctor take me seriously. i haven't ever had someone say, "it's not your fault." i do know i have to be responsible for making the change, but i also know that it is possible. i'm not doomed to a life dictated by my weight and my stress and my lack of energy and my paralyzing depression.
this may be the happiest i've been in ages.
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posted by Mrs. Lupo at 12:43 PM
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