hmpf

today was such a hard day. my last day of student teaching, dealing with much kid issues from thursday, it was cloudy and cold, and i was still waiting for the boy to call.

my 6th graders made me the cutest card, and we had a party, and they all didn't want me to leave.
i'm so bad with goodbyes, and it was hard to keep it all together, but i did. i am happy to be done with it, the largest and hardest part of the teacher credentialing process, but i will miss those 22 kids.

a huge kid issue came up yesterday, and it's very painful and it weighs on my shoulders so much. i couldn't stop crying yesterday afternoon. and today, as i was driving in the car, or sitting somewhere, the tears would just well up. it's just too much this time. it's so incredible to imagine the amount of pain kids today are dealing with. i'm happy to share in this kid's pain, i'm happy to help carry the burden, but it's hard. and i'm not sure when it will be easier.

and, of course, it was cloudy and cold today, which didn't help with my mood at all. i can't wait for it to be real spring weather. sunshine and warm breezes, flowers blooming, shorts and flip flops. that will make everything at least *seem* better.

and the boy. i called him yesterday. and he hasn't called back. but i'm sure it's because he's busy. at the basketball game tonight, and working yesterday and such.
of course, in my head, i'm being a girl and thinking he's just going to walk away like all the other ones. he seems wonderful and amazing, and we have a good time..... and then he walks away.
but i can't stop thinking about the amazing kiss, and the potential for gaming and movies that HE talked about.
who knows. boys are crazy. if i figured them out, i could make millions.

and give it all to the poor. :)